When I wrote that my word for the year would be peace, I did not expect it to be such a struggle.
“Oh, it’ll be easy,” I thought “I’ll just stop doing things and wanting things.”
Oh wow. Trying to stop yourself wanting things so much is painful. Forcing yourself to wait it out rather than doing something the moment you think it would be a good idea is hard. I’m learning to be patient.
I’ve learnt that there are two different types of wanting something. There are the things I want just so that I can want something, and then there are the things that are truly worth having.
Firstly, wanting for the sake of wanting.
I feel like I need to be changing things in my life to feel any forward momentum.