I have this vague recollection that I used to laugh a lot more than I do now. I never used to take anything seriously, and now I worry about everything.
It’s difficult to tell whether taking life seriously led to my anxiety, or my anxiety led to me taking everything more seriously. I don’t know if this matters, what matters is breaking the cycle.
In his book Play It Away, Charlie Hoehn explains that the cure for his anxiety was starting to play again. He suggests that we make lists of things we enjoyed as children, and start to incorporate these activities back into our lives.
I’m playing a minimalism game. Every few days I’m going to throw something out, but before I do I’m going to draw it. This project combines two of my long term goals: draw more and have less stuff.
I used to be in a relationship with somebody from South Africa and I lost count of the number of times somebody asked him, “Have you seen district 9?’ Maybe they were trying to work out whether is an interesting comment on apartheid or just a dumb alien movie, and hoped somebody with a little more context would help them work it out. Maybe they just couldn’t think of anything else to say.
Anyway, this DVD is one of the things that was left when he did. I’ve watched it once since, with another boyfriend, but I don’t have much time for films any more. Especially ones that I’ve already seen.